Mark David Chapman made the feedback in August to a board that denied him parole for a twelfth time, citing his “selfish disregard for human life of global consequence.” Chapman, in a transcript launched by state officers Monday below a freedom of data request, mentioned the choice to kill Lennon was “my big answer to everything. I wasn’t going to be a nobody, anymore.”

“I am not going to blame anything else or anybody else for bringing me there,” Chapman instructed the board. “I knew what I was doing, and I knew it was evil, I knew it was wrong, but I wanted the fame so much that I was willing to give everything and take a human life.”

Chapman killed Lennon on the evening of Dec. 8, 1980, as he and Yoko Ono have been returning to their Upper West Side condo. Earlier that day, Lennon had signed an autograph for Chapman on a duplicate of his lately launched album, “Double Fantasy.”

Chapman, 67, instructed the board, “This was evil in my heart. I wanted to be somebody and nothing was going to stop that.”

Chapman is serving a 20-years-to-life sentence at Green Haven Correctional Facility in New York’s Hudson Valley. He has repeatedly expressed regret throughout his parole hearings through the years.

“I hurt a lot of people all over the place and if somebody wants to hate me, that’s OK, I get it,” he mentioned on the Aug. 31 listening to.

In denying him launch, the board talked about Chapman’s motion has left “the world recovering from the void of which you created.” Chapman’s subsequent parole board look is scheduled for February 2024.

In June, John Hinckley Jr., who shot and wounded President Ronald Reagan in 1981, was free of courtroom oversight, formally concluding a long time of supervision by authorized and psychological well being professionals. Hinckley had been acquitted by motive of madness.