Kesha is “sick of pretending everything is all good”.

The 36-year-old singer / songwriter – who sued music producer Lukasz Gottwald in 2014 in a bid to get out of her recording contracts after accusing him of sexual assault and battery, whereas he subsequently filed a countersuit for defamation – admitted that there are days when she struggles and she or he would not need to pretend being superb.

She instructed The Guardian newspaper: “Sometimes I’m incredibly happy, and then sometimes I have panic attacks. That’s the truth. I’ve been so sick of pretending everything is all good.”

Gottwald’s – who is also known as Dr. Luke – long-running defamation lawsuit against Kesha will go to trial in July and she admitted that there is a “lot of worry” about the future.

She said: “I’ve a giant 12 months arising. There’s a whole lot of worry. Happiness is at all times going to be my objective and one thing I’m working in direction of. I’ve a lovely household and a bunch of beautiful cats, and that makes me completely satisfied. I’ve great associates. But I’m in a whole lot of emotional ache. The complete level of this [new] album is: ‘Some things are not OK, and I’ve been by some stuff that isn’t OK.’”

Kesha labored with producer Rick Rubin on her upcoming album ‘Gag Order’ and she or he revealed it was an emotional expertise.

She mentioned: “I might stroll in every single day and for about two hours I might cry and he would simply create house. He by no means as soon as requested me to cease crying, or to get it collectively. It simply took me a minute to place a voice to those actually disagreeable, embarrassing feelings. I don’t need to be seen as weak, or f***** up, or sad, as a result of total in my life … I’ve all of the feelings.”