Oliver Hudson is getting candid in regards to the early days of his relationship with Erinn Bartlett, his spouse of 18 years. 

On the April 8 episode of his “Sibling Rivalry” podcast, the “Nashville” star revealed that he’d been repeatedly “unfaithful” to Bartlett earlier than the couple was married. 

“When I got engaged, something happened psychologically, and I spiraled,” he defined in dialog with fellow actor Robyn Lively, who’s Blake Lively’s older sister. “I spiraled, and I was unfaithful, and I was cheating, and I was crazy.”

He went on to notice that he “never got caught,” however as an alternative acknowledged his habits in dialog with Bartlett earlier than the pair tied the knot.

“I told her everything because I couldn’t live with myself and get married and be married and have children with this sort of weight,” he stated. “I was crying, like ‘Oh, my God, who am I?’” 

Describing Bartlett as an “amazing woman,” Hudson additionally credited his mom, Goldie Hawn, with providing her help amid challenges in his relationship. 

“My mother played a big part in it as well,” he stated. “Where, it’s about looking at the entirety and the totality of the relationship, not just the action.”

Bartlett, whose Hollywood credit embody “Felicity” and “How I Met Your Mother,” tied the knot with Hudson in Cabo, Mexico, in 2006. The couple share three children: sons Wilder and Bodhi, 16 and 14, respectively, and daughter Rio, 10. 

Though Hudson stated he regrets “causing pain,” he finally has no misgivings in regards to the trajectory of his marriage. 

“Honestly, if that didn’t happen, I don’t know what kind of a person I would be,” he stated. “Although some choices might be bad, if you can sort of come out the other end of them, and learn from why they were bad and how that affected you and everyone else around you, then you’re only growing and you’re building your toolbox.”

Listen to the April 8 episode of “Sibling Rivalry” beneath. Hudson’s feedback on his marriage start across the 31:20 mark.